since my parents n sis was out for their own party i'll be alone at home
i planned to watch my fav horror movie, SAW..
a movie marathon, tried to watch as many as i can..

was watching it while online through laptop..
i watched frm 1 till 4, quite amazing..
SAW 3 made me wanna vomit, too much horror part i guess..
but i only made it to 4..

very blur nw and abit sleepy..
now 3.50am im writing tis, i shud get some sleep, if not im gnna bcome BLUR`~~~

i tis few days reli.. haiz.. worried..
SPM leh.. i dun tink i've been tis worried b4.. haha
eventhough i nvr enter class after trials i stay inside empty class study since 4 days ago.. i study alot, keep reading..

i reli hope the teacher wont be mad at me..
since most of them support me alot now and then.. especially the bm, sci, bm teacher

smemore nxt week alrdy the starting of November/SPM month.. T_T
OgC, u can do it! just 1 month and a half of the last exams and u can fuck off alrdy!
dun be sad, be happy, dun worry..
life after sch MAY be stressful, but were doing wad WE WANT
if work? get money and buy wad WE WANT.. enjoy to the max.. =))

tis few days go sch is such a waste of time..
i mean, Gerak Gempur??? sch activity is more ngam...
they say tis GErak thing is make us feel how izzit to sit for SPM, doesnt feel like it anyway on my 1st day Gerak...
can chit chat wif frens.. ==

insttead of wasting time, ALWAYs stay at upstairs class frm nw on..
^_^.. so grateful form 3 fnish exam and gave us tat free class..

i cant take it anymore..
i dunno why im stil staying in tis house wif a mother who couldnt giv a shit..
seriously??

u argue abt the smallest thing to me..
i dowan mention wad we argue abt, it would just end up making my mum sound fucking childish..

i dunno u love me or not as a son..
i dont care if u do anymore if the answer is yes or no..
nxt year i would be too busy to care for ur sorry ass anyway rite??
i got better things to care off than u..

2day when almost time to fnish sch suddenly i no mood..
dunno why seriously..
erm, im guessing it is the 2nd re-take of the trial exam.. coz of the soalan bocor they wanna remake it.. well im seriously fucking pissed at tis coz i wanna relax til spm or study til spm and u giv me another pile of shit to work on?
LUCKILY its my last damn year at SCHOOL..
i will always rmember the ppl i met at sch, BUT NOT u teachers, u racist clowns..

after awhile my mood gotten better, phew..
i usually hate staying pissed or sad the whole day, just cant take it
i usually loose myself in happiness or smething crazy after tat haha
thx to movies, music who always accompany me 24 hours haha..
downloading STEPS EVO nw, since Annie gave me the disc which was the oldest version ever and nw alrdy reach version 67.. o_0???
so im downloading the full client.. 89% yay! so near.. c'mon c'mon

watched transformers just nw, 1 of my fav movies..
crazy action, awesome characters/robots

FASTER la steps.. i wan ply u LoL (sounds wrong)

tis morning went to cc wif py and cj..
skipped sch since its useless coz no study..
morning went met py n cj, btw 2day weather frickin nice here..

reach alrdy plyed steps..
LUCKY i rmembered my old acc.. if not gg lo, cant cr8 new 1 (dunno y)
steps now reli look cool, coz its an update to the old 1..
and i miss plying it, alot memories come back when plying it.. =))))
giv py and cj sapu 9 9

after tat, plyed SDO wif both of em..
kesian cj keep game over.. haha
then after 3-4 songs i stop alrdy, cant tahan.. my eyes blur alrdy
i dunno why tis few days i ply sdo tat time, i will blur very fast
izzit i reli old man alrdy?? o.0

Annie tmr come sch giv me yah.. ^_^
yay then can spam steps at home, but must rmember study for spm too..
screw u spm o0o and screw u 2nd trial..
WHOEVER created the 2nd trial, if i find u im gnna take tat paper and shove it up ur ass, im gnna paper ass rape u u fuck

2day is py special day..
she was born 2day Oct 12..

b4 tat, plyed futsal, injured my leg.. wong.. ur fault
k, i summarise alrdy.. =p

during eating mcd, when bought py mini bday cake..
then followed brian, sam and jacq go his hse while wait the bday girl come
then go her emerald hse coz she pindah alrdy..
her old hse nobody ma..

fung and brian cook spaghetti..
very tasteless anyway.. sausage got taste la..
then suprise py giv her the bday cake..
and her present..
then go Old Town eat supper or dinner since so late
awhile, alrdy smething happen to brian..
and me also, quite the same thing and maybe i knw how brian felt maybe not..
but dowan talk abt tat.. coz its py bday.. it shud be abt her 2day..

sry py, if i got ruin/spoil the mood just nw..
but i still very happy tat u r happy.. and enjoy urself 2day..
rmember ah.. the word H-A-P-Py got end wif ur name (PY)
so u very ngam be happy.. rmember ah if u sad u uglier than me o, so u must win me..
so must happy ah, only lenglui o.. Hap(py)

Happy Bday again..
FRIEND FOREVER~~~

well, tis few days i got alot of misunderstanding around me.. some abt me, some not
usually ppl tink im weird.. like, wtf is going on in my damn mind..
i do things out of the ordinary, coz i find it fun, but im not getting any1 into trouble.. so let me be..
if those piece of shit ass born crap got anything to say to me say it to my face
dun talk bhind my back like im deaf..

sorry, im just me..
u ask me why i do all the things i do i'll just answer ITS ME.. depends wad im doing
maybe im always the rebel among all..
maybe my ways of thinking are diffrent but i wont simply think bad abt anybody unless they ARE a piece of shit who doesnt deserve my pity..

all this talk on the newspaper, its the same news..
same news all the fucking time.. im just getting sick of it..
(u guys shud knw wad news)
tats when i thought, i just wanna live my life.. no matter how bad it is..
example, i have only 1 leg i will stil live my life!

dun misuderstand me tat i dont care abt anybody k..
got 3 important categories in my life so far
My family
My friends
My girl
you fuck with them your fucking with me understand?

'forgive your enemies, but never forget their names'

2day sci exam.. i very angry at myself coz i couldnt rmember anything eventhough i study it like hell..
make alot mistake too, and leave to many blank.. fuck, how to pass?? difficult to say
tis is my 1st sign of a really bad fucking day

sry annie, i just really stressed out earlier
im sorry if i made u angry or sad 2day, thx for ur sms..

went to a dinner party wif my family..
was hving quite a good time
beer, music, good food
when wanna go back tat time, my parents had a little too much to drink
the direction to go back also wan argue
keep arguing, until i say loud loud to tell them stop argue and just drive home and dun care which road use, just reach home most important
suddenly my mum ask me why i angry, isnt it obvious why??????
then she scold me, as if my fault
and u keep saying ur not a perfect mother, telling me no ned go out wif the family anymore..
u knw ur words very hurt me not? i just dowan u n dad argue.. izzit so hard to be happy? ur words feel like u dun care abt me anymore..
im sorry im not perfect, sorry im not as smart as u wan me to be, sorry my character is like this im just honest wif u, sorry im not perfect

i keep hurting myself and ppl 2day..
sorry im not perfect.. i reli just wish my tear drops will stop while typing tis..