dad recently passed away on 2nd day of CNY, may he rest in peace.. i know he's in a better place
Yet after everything that happened i still wanna enjoy myself, i do try to enjoy myself..
was looking forward to a night out with friends, but bcz of some stupid tradition that says you cant go to someone's house after a recent death in the family.. ISNT IT FUCKING STUPID?
seriously, such a sad time full of grief dont u think people just wanna enjoy themselves to make themselves feel better?? That fucking rule just pisses me off bcz i know how it feels.. just fucking pissed

Just to make things even better, tak boleh pergi gf punya rumah... Kimak betul
seriously, just wanna breakdown.. and she cant come my hse either.. I cant feel any more terrible..
and baru gaduh with her, seriously.. Then she um song here n there, good job on comforting me babe..
Unhappy moment, unhappy days, unhappy relationship just to make things worse..

Angry, lonely, sad
friends who dont reply, a gf who cant understand my feelings..
i do have friends who care.. but to those that just... Gahh~ how do i say it.. i just cant see them caring at all
Truth is, i feel very very lonely always.. I dunno if sometimes ppl really see me, im invisible all the time?
i've felt tis way for many years... I dunno how long more i can take being invisble..

Lucky i got my mum and sis, i need take care of them..
but its hard to take care of someone when your feeling like shit.. i cant be strong for them if im...
What did i do??? to deserve this..

there havent been many feedback as i hoped, more on facebook inbox than here but as long there are some
but i decided to go along with my plan to VLOG..
it might take some time to prepare, 1st i need a good webcam to record
thats all, but since CNY is approaching it might take alot more time than i thought
but anyway, i have alot of ideas to make vlogging fun..

If u guys have any idea of what i should do while recording just let me know alrite?
it could be anything from games or questions or reviews on certain things..
I'll try to keep it as entertaining as possible, thats my most important goal i think.. i wouldnt want it to be boring so i'll try to keep it fresh
So yeah, any ideas pops up or any fun ideas for me to do just let me know..
i;ll try to make it happen if its possible..

hey guys and girls, how's it going?
i know i havent been blogging awhile, if u do follow and read wad i post u shud know that i feel very lazy to type stuff out recently..
BUUUTTTT, i had an idea of what other things i can do.. VLOG..

you heard of vlog before? no?? shit...
Blog= writing
Vlog= Recording yourself and saying stuff out rather than typing it..

Bcz if u know me very well, u should know that i dun really chat much or type much stuff out.
If u see me in real life i talk better, i can talk non stop SOMETIMES..
so i feel i can connect better if i vlog with u guys..
and i already have a few things and ideas what to record in mind and i think it'll be fun
ya it'll be really cool..
SO, i need all your feedback to let me know if i should do it, because im saving money for the good quality webcam to record, i alrdy have a headphone and mic..

so yeah, let me know if i should do it
the chatbox is on your RIGHT for now, so leave me any comments there and give me feedback alright?
notice the "for now" bcz my gf loves changing my blogskins sometimes so it'll be somewhere if u cant find it..
so yeah, remember leave some comments at the chatbox bcz i could use your help thanks.. <3 p="">
if u have any other ideas, u can facebook me or whatsapp me or wtv if u feel its important
i will check back regularly and give a reply if i can.. thanks